The past few days have been miserable. The morning sickness has turned into any-time-of-the-day sickness, the nausea sticks around for a while, and my lower back has begun to ache. I just feel crappy. I spend most of my time in bed and find it unbelievably exhausting to do the most normal of tasks. I literally have to lay on the bed and rest after taking a shower. The laundry takes me an extra long time to accomplish and my bedroom is probably the dirtiest it has been in a while. I just don't have the energy to keep up with what I normally do. Who knew developing a baby could take so much out of you? I certainly didn't. I can't even think straight anymore. I knew this was going to be hard but, of course, I didn't realize just how hard until I was experiencing it.
I had my first sonogram today and it was, in a word, surreal. When that baby first popped on the screen it was bouncing around and waving its arms and legs about. It was like Baby was happy to see us. :) It was so cool to see that it was so active and to see the flicker of the little heartbeat. Then, we were able to hear the heartbeat and I couldn't help myself. I cried out of joy and relief. Kyle was just in awe that it was even possible to hear the heartbeat but it was a different experience for me. Hearing the heartbeat means that the baby is really there and that all the miserableness that I have been feeling isn't for not. It is such a relief and a motivator to not only get through these next several months but to enjoy them. Now anytime that I'm feeling awful I can just look at the pictures of my little one and remember the sound of his or her heartbeat. I'm so thankful for that experience, it was a big encouragement and a huge blessing.
